And so it begins....

You know how the saying, "distance makes the heart grow fonder" or something like that? That doesn't really apply to me if I don't establish a strong bond with someone. Especially in a relationship. I've been talking to my boyfriend less. I don't really know why. Maybe I'm just tired of him cracking jokes all the time. I like a guy who can make me laugh and is fun, but there is a limit for me. He took it a little bit too far when I made a wrong reference to a cartoon and he said he would break up with me. I was a bit upset even though I know he's not that shallow. I don't take any threats to any of my relationships lightly. In the beginning I would have to resist texting him and now I don't really mind. I've been told I'm pretty independent. Maybe I'm getting bored. Maybe it's because I haven't seen him in about 3 weeks. I feel like I'm in high school all over again. Get into a relationship, get bored, break up, move on with life. Yet I was complaining in the beginning of summer of wanting a relationship. My friends were nice enough to set me up with people they know. I always had this fear that if I broke up with someone all this friends will be out to get get me because I make myself out to be the bad guy. I sometimes don't know what to do with myself.

But enough of wondering what to do, I need to prep for school because it starts this Thursday~ I'll see my friends less and less and be more active because I'm doing belly dancing and pole dancing! Yes, I am a pole dancer. It's not as easy as it looks! I give mad props to strippers that's for sure.

Anyways, this blog is mainly to get away from everything and serve as a diary of rantings since I don't write in mines anymore. I have all the pages I've written though. Til next time~

Edit: I posted this on my art blog by accident ahaha.